Today wake up at 4 somethings dunno why i wake up so late.
wanna wake up early check at web see gt job ant but seem hard to get.
cash is getting low,need to find cash oso ..
why my life always goes up n down ?
why my life so suck n fuck up ?

ppl always telling mi look on de best side.
say is easy but do is hard,who will understand all this feeling?
guess no ppl will noe ba.

darling i miss u alots.
seeing u with her taking de pic so loving,am really happy for u .
i cant be de selfish person who always hold u by my side which i cant give u happiness. u be with mi always suffer n tears keep droping down.
i wish i can meet u but nw u already gt gf i cant hug u anymore le.
i dun meet u cos i noe i will sure hug or hold ur hand.
alright nth i can do le.darling i wish u all de best

Sat went in jb wei ting house stay till sun den back.
staying there no stress at all n relax oso.
beside eat de rest of time we stay at her place.
hoping next time can go oversea again .

now is time for mi to look for jobs,dunno why every human onli mi always keep looks for job.
am i really so useless?maybe i am right.
dunno wat should i say myself sia.

anyway let hope i faster get jobs soon alright.

stress stress onli this words i can write down.
i dunno wat should i do n wat can i do ?
i dun mind see out here that i own ppl money n i trying find money returning.

look for new jobs i oso need to think abt my skin treatment.
am human why i always fan so much things.
why am others living in gd life den mine ?
why must my mom gives up on living in this worlds n left mi alone face everythings?
why must god be unfair?
i ask so much oso no ppl can help mi at all.
alone stand strong n face,putting happy face infornt of others.
am not srtong like how u guys noe,i just wake but i keep hold on.

so many days never update due to i dunno how to say n update.
most time at home n face show onli,beside watching show nothings i will do le.
if can change everythings i wish i will not be in this worlds.

Is time to update my blog again .
nowadays happen alots of stuff again btw mi n merilynn.
i miss her laugh,smile,hug mi sleep n alots more.
how i noe her n how we been together i wun forget it again.
all abt her i have just keep in mind that all.
i wish i could get her back my side but i dunno whether can .
shall see fate will bring her back anot alright.

hoping next week i can start work.
olay n per hour is 8/,pray hard i can asap start work.
wanna work being at home like stupid like that.
rather go work n time will pass faster.

nowadays i keep going to malaysia,cos going there is relax.
but some movie n show not forgeting cig oso.
den back singapore.
been long time never have gd smile n happy time le.

am feeling down n lost can someone tell mi wat should i do ?
this pic n merilynn my first les gf n will be de last one.
i dunno how should i put btw us too.
nw am relationship in guy
but dunno why when i saw she is in relationship,i dislike it alots n alots.
ppl oso telling mi cant be selfish but wat can i do ?

thinking abt few days i think i should take time forget abt her.
go on life with my own path way.
face those life myself.
nth much i can say no mood at all

been few days never update abt my blog le..
dunnp wat should i write it down .
nowadays nt in gd mood cos somethings happen on mi .

today i never turn to work cos xy told mi that wed n thur her mom going oversea.
call her never pick up n her uncle too.
that why never turn up to work n head to visit someone impt to mi.
since xy already tell hubby that i not need to work for her.
thinking i will be looking for new job.
dunno why since working with xy she always say that her family treat mi well.
ya is ture they treat mi well why must she keep put in her mouth.
everytime heard from her mouth that words,let mi feel that i like own them things.
how should i return by working for them free?
is this way she wans mi return her ?
wun say much just can say work with her stress that all.
dunno is her att wrong or mi ba.
am sure that i have never talk back or use att to her that all.

will be looking for new jobs. hoping get better job n pay lastly wun have problem again.

-sister happy birthday-

sorry reader super long never update my blog le .
cos am busy with work everyday work 10hour n two week off one time.
onli mom n tues am going for skin treatment den can go late at 3pm :)
nowadays finish work head home sleep ,wake up n work.
tat my life nw .

so wish i can goes for some shopping :(
been month never shop le wanna get alots of stuff in my mind.
keep save save n use .
shock right!
i onli spent on fare cig n treatment onli.
de rest i was helping hubby.

hubby is getting well ,tml need back poly .
but he told mi he goes himself,i think he wanna let mi sleep early ba.
thanks hubby buy i will try wake up early acc u if i can.
alright got to end here.

let wish myself getting gd luck n time pass fast for mi to shopping

this morning xy n chantel came up find mi.
was sleeping thinking how come noise , wake up bang door.
wat i always do when noise.
end up saw them inside my room , we will having some funny stuff n keep laughing.

at 10 pus hubby text mi saying he band into another bike.
worried n wanna rush down look for him,but cant :(
need to work so text hubby telling him finish work rush home.
dun heart to work at all,keep making myself busy so that time pass faster.
cook for hubby some food so eat but i never eat dinner.

reach home saw hubby leg n hand heart pain.
freed him eat n shower for him.
my poor hubby nowadays am busy with my stuff cant take of u .
am sorry being a unless wife .
but i will earn alots of money to pay those who we own de money.
lastly not forget repair ur bike for u .
alright got to stop tml having skin center treatment again .

today wake up at 10.30 rush n get myself already n leave home.
my eye was so pain n feel wans to vomit,but i still go work.
left work at 3 pm cab back wlds meet nicholas at 304.
both of us went to see doctor but close so we go FKC eat.
while eating heavy rain :( so slack at there till rain stop.
while slack we go for some foot massage to relax our leg.

De uncle massage till so pain :(
but i still hold on to it .
after that we went to q for doctor .
finish seeing doctor n hubby come fetch me up.
went back 304 n eat dinner n nw hubby is going to get his bike home.
so i be guai guai at home rest.
wanna go but cant cos not enough bike.

alright tml will be going for skin treatment again.

feeling so boring looking at my blog seem so ugly .
so i change again myself .
tml going to work le ,been rest for three days should be enough :)
tml work at 11 am,dunno why i be going late again ?
till now i still using com .

last night went boat quay with roger bao cheng hubby n xy.
went up to drink again .
xy brother was with his friends at V3 so i run there awhile.
took some pic with them n rush back acc hubby.
drink till they closing n slack till 6 take cab home.
wake up at 7pm bath went 19 eat with hubby.
meet chee chaun under his block chat den head home .

wow now already 1.39am i still cant sleep die le los :(
scare tml cant wake up sia

last night came xy house with hubby .
eat steambost together n chat play com , thanks xy bro helping mi done my blogskin:)
he oso treach mi how to change.

hubbby n i slept over her place n slack over.
even not much ppl here but we still enjoy n having our own fun .
we even bath here too :)

wow miss home alots,thinking tonigth will be staying home.
plan to watch movie but i feel like sing k :(
alright i got to stop here :)

i wake up late for work,i have change to work longer hour.
uncle who always cook not longer working anymore that why i need to go down early.
pass few days no chance update cos am tired n i always sleep late.sorry -_-

let mi say pass few doing wat alright :)
goes to sing k with xy n hao n one friend,enjoy for 1 hour n goes to work.
finish work go down hao work place slack till 3am den head home rest.
super tired,cos next day have to wake up early to go skin center for treatment.
when treatment head down to work till 10pm.
thanks hubby turn up to fetch me finish work :)
reach home bath n change bed sheet den goes to my lala land.

wake up at 10.30am that why i say am late for work again.
cos start at 12 den yet i still at home update my blog relax awhile.
alright get myself prepare n head for work .
enjoy pic that we sing k okay :)

Is time for mi to update my blog , am tired de but still wanna blog.
last night alots of friends come up our house play 21 :)
xue ying mi n some ppl win money ..
hubby working so while i playing .
when saw hubby back home am super hubby n i love hubby lots de.
wow this month is mi n hubby 11 month le .
next month is years le wor :)

today wake up at 12 noon watch some show till 2 pus get ready for skin center.
after skin center i come back wld meet dyon at causeway .
having some tea break den hubby call mi up.
hubby wans mi follow him goes to see PGM .
hmm shall update here !